48:42 Hmm. Yeah, man I do find it really interesting the way they seem to play with the characters of the biblical story and there are some insightful lessons in texts like these but Like you mentioned, it's kind of similar to comic books or that kind of approach. That fan fiction approach and it... You know from your perspective as someone who has spent so much time in this It takes hours and hours and years and years To really digest these texts And become knowledgeable about these ancient sects Its a helluva rabbit hole I mean what value does it have to you? What do you think are the most important things you've gotten out of This epic study Really just these I guess forbidden Gospels in a way
49:25 Yeah, I mean uh...I think as April De Connick wrote the Gnostic gospels didn't become forbidden. They were forbidden from the very start they were something so radical and they're even radical today! For somebody to question the gods and representatives of the whole state of nature that's still pretty radical even in occult circles it makes people really uncomfortable like oh my god you're messing with Gaia and nature is so wonderful yeah okay yeah whatever But it was very radical and to me, again that sort of amazing rebellion is like when I was younger. I went through my hippie stage and sometimes I think well maybe Jan Irving in a J Dyer right this is completely manufactured because the hippies they just sold out and became lawyers and politicians and the people that are causing the trouble today
50:18 And I was the same way. I was younger and I was like, yeah, I'm gonna listen to Megadeth and rage against the machine and fight the power man is it's almost like as soon as I got out of college and got married, I just went into nine-to-five job pay my bills vote all its like what happened to me? How does that happen? It seems to happen every why is it so easy for people to sell out in this world? Why did I sell out? Why did my uncle and my aunt the hippie sellout so quickly and everybody's miserable When i discovered the gnostics i said this takes it even further this is even more radical and all the radical teachings i heard from the east
50:57 from philosophers from writers this is the most radical thing in the world we live in a false world we don't belong in this world we are being completely controlled by these higher entities that, no chance of defeating but in a way we are far superior to them there's part of us they can wake up and become even more supreme than them and really help out those that are needed So the Gnostics being so radical, extremely radical really helped me sort of get that thrust. And again people say well it's so negative but when you read their texts beyond what I said about self-knowledge there is an amazing joy that i'd never seen before because again they had woken up and seeing the truth of the world and now they really wanted to do something about it and they have taken the red pill then there was no blue pill and they were going to move forward in taking
51:50 all the way. There was no getting there, like I mentioned that would take these flights inside and outside to all these cosmic region to these levels in like a video game fight a bigger boss each time a stronger boss and they were just going to keep going until well until the game ended and usually the game ended with them being destroyed their physical part being destroyed but as a narrative i really find it amazingly heroic i find it amazingly compassionate I find it amazingly stimulating because they were such people of reason and kindness. They really did walk the walk when you read stories of the Cathars or Manichaeans,
52:31 The classic Gnostics, they were always despite their really heavy handed message. Their existentialist message They were really beloved by their communities They were embraced by people People really liked them! But people that didn't like them where the religious and secular powers around Eventually they had to go And I think the other thing that the Gnostics at least touched with me Was I think their central tenant was beyond anything? Beyond anything that wanted in this world is that they wanted freedom. They wanted complete and adulterated freedom
53:09 They thought, like for example when you read the existentialists like Sartre and those guys. They always thought the whole purpose of being a human was to be free but after that there was no meaning to the universe this was a dark universe had no meaning being free with as good as you got in that was a worthy fight The Gnostics took it one step, they were sort of the positive existentialist that you find in Colin Wilson and some other thinkers. They believe no! The ultimate state for human is to be free and then to find meaning in this world because its a busy universe with a lot of spiritual entities and amazing places to go I'd like to quote Eric Davis
53:54 He's a Philip K. Dick scholar and in his book Nomad Codes, he has this great quote which I always think exemplifies what the Gnostics have taught me and it goes, quote, ìIíd like to suggest instead that the impulse to transcend the Neoplatonists ascent through the spheres, the Gnostic sudden awakening, the desert monks rejection of the ëlan vitalí is not simply a philosophical error of the mark of patriarchy, but is fired by an intensely lucid yearning for the highest goals—liberation." And I think that's what the Gnostics wanted. And what I want. What we always want! We just wanna be free!