39:32 I've grieved way better in recent years than I did in my first 50 because I slowed down enough to feel the grief that I was running so hard from. Well said. And I always get a little self-conscious when the interviews become so much about me and what I'm doing. But, you know, a lot of what you said is kind of the opposite of somewhat what we've tried to do. But, you know, it's not just the chickens. We have planted a lot of stuff. We have an acre of land, but the sandy soil in Florida is tough. It's mostly dead soil. So we're trying to revitalize dead soil, raise two kids that are under five years old. We don't have a lot of help. And, you know, when you say things like, oh, go sit under a tree and breathe and meditate and take everything in.
40:16 I want to do that. That was the vision when we got here. But there's fire ants fucking everywhere. So if I sit down under any tree for five minutes, I will be coated in fire ants and have welts and scars that may never go away. I think I damaged myself from fire ants already. And we try to grow enough that like the deer and the birds can have, but that it leaves some for us. Unfortunately, that's not happening. We had probably 200 peaches coming in. Squirrels come in. They take them before they're even ripe. You know, at least wait till they're ripe.
40:56 But, you know, we put a lot of sweat equity into this land and trying to do it the right way. I've even interviewed people who are more of an occult flavor that try to fold in like putting an altar under a big guardian tree outside. And like, I try to think in these terms, and it just seems like the land is not wanting to work with me. And then you end up in the hospital for a month and everything's overgrown. So it's a lot. It's a lot to try to revitalize the soil in the way that people like yourself will talk about. And I know that's important. You start there. But then, like, I feel like I'm fighting the nature around me and it isn't even wanting me to get a fucking moment's peace under a tree where I can get outside of my head enough, long enough to just be.
41:44 You know, an acre of land is a lot of land, but yet it seems like there's nowhere I could actually do that for more than five minutes. And I don't want to poison the land. We're growing food here. So I'm not trying to poison the fire ants, but I don't know. Do I just try to tap into their frequency and tell them to get the fuck out of here? You know, these are the challenges. Yeah. And I think, you know, everybody who's tried to grow a garden will really feel a lot of reassurance that it's so painful for you because it's been painful for everybody that's tried to get back into nature. But I think we have to have a lot of grace on ourselves because all of our traditional practices have been forgotten.
42:25 And so for us to leave the city and expect it to go real clever, you know, just when we arrive, we have to drill down on 40 generations of people that lived in Florida. So, you know, you had like over 14 different nations that were living in Florida for 10 to 40,000 years before colonialism arrived. And they had the most complex agricultural system that Europeans had ever seen upon arrival. It was feeding 100 million people throughout what's now North America. And so this place was thriving when we showed up. There were flocks of birds that would black out the sun for three days. There was, you know, herds of antelope and bison that would shake the ground like an earthquake.
43:10 And there were pasture pigeons everywhere. The American chestnut was the most incredible tree that the world had ever seen. The Europeans had never seen trees like this. All of that went extinct because of our colonial separation from natural systems. It had been here for 40,000 years with humans. So it's not human trade. It's not a humans that kill this. It's systems that have been kicked out of nature. It's systems that believe that we are separate from nature that went and created abstract systems which were inherently scarce. So it's the scarcity that you and I are dealing with when we decide, you know what, I'm going to create a garden.
43:50 Fact is, we actually have no idea what the earth would have been providing if our village had remained intact with seasonal eating growing patterns and wildlife management because it was wildlife management. These were food forests that had been grown by humans. There's still one of them left, and it's called the Amazon Rainforest. It's the largest human-made food system in the world. And it's a larger continuous tree canopy than all of North America is large. large. And so this tree canopy is a food forest designed by tens of thousands of villages that were born out of hundreds of different nations and peoples in their cultures.
44:33 And so this is something that's inherent to humans is we know how to live within the land, but it takes a lot to get back to that level of memory. And what the a lot is, is not doing more. It's waiting more. It's listening more. It's being patient. And so if you guys had been encouraged to, and you weren't, not a single website will ever encourage you to do this, and nobody will ever tell you to do this. But if you were encouraged to hear, oh, we want to leave the city, and the message was fantastic. I want you to go drive the land until you start to feel in your nervous system an unwinding.
45:13 And then I want you to walk that land for four seasons until you find the spot that is telling you where you should live. But instead, you jumped in a vehicle with a realtor who had an agenda to sell you a piece of one acre land and you run around and like, well, this will do. This feels good. Yeah. So there's no connection yet to the land. And you guys might find out that you're actually supposed to be in the middle of Idaho. And that's where life is actually easy because there's actually the right amount of water and sun and soil and all of this. And you're not supposed to be growing your kids and farm and sand. It could be done in soil. But so these are the limitations that the systems are.
45:56 And then we rage against the machine of nature being like, well, it's too hard to function within you when nature's like, you haven't even arrived. You haven't gotten here yet. I appreciate that for sure. And I do love those old reports of the abundance that was here when the white man came. I mean, it is really crazy because we think of, or we're taught to think of the Native Americans as, oh, these primitive people are just living off the land. No, they're, they're actually cultivating their land. They're cultivating abundance. They're, they know, like, they're not just going out and rolling the dice to see if the herd comes through. They know where it moves and they engineer it to be a strong, large herd so that they can, you know, have a reciprocal relationship.