37:25 To me it's a similar situation of a person who was not exactly mentally stable at the end you know. I don't know how long for but towards the end in particular and she has a background lot of people don't know about that gets into very sketchy shady dark individuals that's how she got the call now it shows hang out with some dark dark people, But this person dies and then everyone jumps to well they were a truth seeker in the conspiracy community there for must be. Taken out by the deep state and i don't think that's the story with tracy i know what i think it is i think its a lot closer home but you know i can talk about it because there's a lot of people who,
38:08 have been sued for talking about what they think it is. Well, I won't go there either i know what you mean? I've known Tracy for a while and I believe I was one of the last people to speak to her before she died. I was actually supposed to do her show the day she disappeared really yeah and we had this great conversation that we both wish that we had taped like this two hour conversation on skype Because we were going to do the show, we're going to talk about the Knights Templar and Mithraic cults and all these kind of things. And it was fantastic when she was a brilliant research, a brilliant mind but she's also incredibly troubled and was getting involved... She'd always been involved with the darkness I mean she was hanging around people like Boyd Rice and Douglas Pierce and you know lot of these weird sort of industrial neo-Nazi Satan types
39:06 Nicola shrug people like that who are dodgy at best you know and she was then doing all these like baffling that channeling with the board on youtube and i'm just kind of thinking like. I was in pretty much regular contact with her i don't wanna say daily but two or three times a week and i was trying to say right now i am not sure that's a good idea yeah i don't think they're like, And again whether or not it's an external entity of the calls coming from inside the house you know that's a decision have to make but it really doesn't make any difference. In the end result is a commonality that people are opening themselves up to outside forces psychically mentally, eventually this earworm his brain worm gets deep enough and you can get out well exactly mental parasite
40:01 And she was also discovering these really strange videos on youtube and i don't even know how she found them because they would have like single digit views. And they look like there were generated like very early a i generally but they were really weird and just remind me of it in not. In subject matter whatever but it kinda give me the same feeling as video when the movie the ring right you know your when you actually see that video it just has this like weird surreal disturbing psychotic flavor to it you know and i told her is like. You might wanna just sort of steer clear that you know those look really sick and weird dangerous and, don't look like the kind of things that people who are willing to act on their sickness create crazy that we have not talked about this because i have said cuz i get asked a lot because of the mentioning of my show in everything in my friend
41:01 What what i said like tracy came to me with a bunch of material and she wanted to go live right now we gotta do it show and i was like trace the i don't do shows i don't go live like i prepare and i do interview like weekend probably do that but give, show me what you're talking about like let's make the case in white men. Because i wouldn't do it that day like who got to you know and i was like this is a little bit paranoid your not listening. And i saw some of these videos so did my friend kyle who was diagnosed by polar and got hospitalized against as well we don't even know what happened he was on the street next thing, he was alone walking his dog in the street next thing is waking up tied up to a gurney basically and diagnose bipolar after talking to tracy and not sleeping a lot but
41:48 The videos were of these kids talking to the camera talking about pikachu and pokemon, and giving out numbers in she thought these were videos of kids that were like for sale or that there was some kind a code on what they would do and this was part of. i catalog and that these kids could all be source back to the same school. That is essentially what this was but i agree with you that there was a there was something about it where i was like oh no bringing this out, could get you killed this is like way too specific and i probably wouldn't touch it and not just the reality of it so they're again we have a situation where
42:26 You can always look at a point in tracy's life and be like well this is the dangerous thing she was focused on and then you can make the case that does why she no longer here but i've just said i talk it up to i think she was a reckless researcher reckless. In multiple different ways psychically reckless with the channeling, reckless with her inner circle of friends and who should associate with and recklessly charging into things that she didn't necessarily have sorted out completely And a lot of things can happen to a person when they're doing that. Yeah, and again I mean you have to look at the history right? When she was doing Daggerbert's revenge in the kind of people who were drawn to her and that she was drawn to Nicholas Devere being good example of that now i'm not trying to bust on Tracy Tracy was my friend I had wonderful conversations with her I'd been on our podcasts we've done a few of these together
43:28 And we had again, we had this wonderful conversation just before she vanished. But I will not look past the facts as i know them just because people want to spin an exciting conspiracy theory that quite frankly they have no true investment in it's just a pastime okay if you didn't know Tracy if you didn't talk to Tracy you really shouldn't make these kind of conclusions about her death. And I will just tell you right now, and i've said this before is that after I had done this presentation, I had deleted all the materials that I had collected over the years of Tracy's. I just deleted them and it was kinda like a purge, kinda like an exorcism It wasn't to dishonor her or life for work
44:28 But i just felt that it becomes so infested. It was like a house invested with termites right, it was beautiful how is your well built but it's unfortunately just became rotted through and through by these influences by what i feel very strongly are are very dark and malevolent spiritual influences, okay? And maybe people are gonna have a problem with me saying that but that's just the way I felt. And I just felt that to sort of purge that, to get that influence out of my life, I had to just delete all this material that I had on all these external hard drives and so on. And I don't regret that, I don't regret that. And I wanna remember her, I wanna remember our discussions, I wanna remember you know
45:13 Prodigy this bright young girl who created the soul magazine and subculture i don't wanna remember. I think that's fair and i do think there are parallels we talked about calling us the dark side of truth or having that be part of the framing, and it is a perilous chapel parallel you know it is a pair less water to swim in n I just want to make sure that something else gets fit into the first hour. It's always jam-packed with you, we're always trying to put four hours of content in a two hour box but going back to the Henry Martinez post